Stuck

i don't know what im gonna do about my situation
i love nyj sooo much but this guy is just .. everything
he says the right things he does the right things its weird
cause i've been close to him for so long but didn't realize this side of him


nyj and i haven't talked about it, he knows that i've been
talking to this other guy but he rather avoid the situation & not
talk to me about it which kills me inside cause i just want him to acknowledge
but on the other hand i dont want him to because maybe how we are is meant to be
and we should just end it sooner rather than later ....


i've mostly been blaming things on him saying he won't let me go
but i realized maybe he is .. maybe this is just his way of doing it
and maybe im the one whos not letting him go .. i don't know
i just want to get the air clear before the new year


-sighhhhhh-